To wenyi

(edited- rewritten first time out of anguish& second, out of anger)
Clearly stated:
To: Wenyi

i really don't know what to say.
are you referring to me?

i never felt this worse before.
you said i didn't care.

excuse me, whose the one who first left me?

why isit you're always the one right and i'm always the one wrong?

you say i didn't sit down and have a nice talk with you, may i know, haven't i tried?
It's so damn long ago already. But i clearly remember you're the one who says you gotta go. The call's less than half hour. You seemed okay then. Laughing and giggling like how it was once. So haven't i tried? I thought everything was going to be okay then. Well,now i know it isn't.You think i feel good when you whisper to someone else infront of me? Why are you always like that?
I'm just starting to forget the good times between us and stay contended with them. Why do you have to be so cruel to stab me once again?
Do i have to mention all those times you avoided me when i'm trying to SIT DOWN AND HAVE A NICE TALK WITH YOU?
do you need me to remind you? cause if you need, welcome, i am clearly sure i can.

and i don't understand.
WHY ARE YOU EVEN PISSED WITH ME.

ASK EVERYONE. DID I EVEN SAID 'WALAO SHE'S WITH QIULIN THEY ALL INSTEAD OF US' did i said i loathe her? did i say i loathe you friends? Why do you have to be so mean to me?

i can't believe you type all those on your blog. I wished it isn't meant for me, but clearly it seems so. But this post, written out of anguish and heartbreak, is clearly meant for you.

I don't know. I'm scared of alot of things now. So you want me to leave this clique so that you can go out with them? Everything i thought i knew, i didn't anymore. are you the reason marjorie's attitude towards me lately? I DON'T KNOW.


WHY DON'T YOU CARE ANYMORE?
WHY DON'T YOU WANT ME ANYMORE?
I DON'T UNDERSTAND, SERIOUSLY, WHY DON'T YOU CARE ANYMORE?

DO WE HAVE TO END UP LIKE YOU AND RUBY?
why you only care about your feelings, 为什么你没有想过我的感受？

and why you act as if nothing happen when we are face to face but have to write things that hurt on your blog? why?

是你以前说的，不管发生什么事都当面说清楚。不要自己在背后乱说。Then what about you now? You want to tell me you hasn't spoke to marjorie/yuenling/qiulin about me/how irritated you are by me? Save it, cause i wouldn't believe you.

what did i said that makes your blood boil? Why didn't you just scold/slap/bash me right then. You have to go home and decide that you then want me to know by writing on your blog? Why isit you never call me/ look me up to SIT DOWN AND HAVE A NICE TALK WITH ME?
next time, ask yourself before poking your finger at anyone, did you even tried? I've tried. I've failed. Why should i be the one trying i always ask myself? Cause i want us to be just like before. Clearly, looking at your attitude, it isn't possible anymore.

You don't care isn't it.
But let me tell you,

I CARE. I CARE ALOT.

THAT IS WHY THE SECOND TIME I'VE CRIED INFRONT OF MY FRIENDS IS BECAUSE OF YOU. Want to guess the first time? It's syf result. And guess what, you are the one beside me then. AND IT BOTHERS ME VERY MUCH THAT YOU DON'T CARE. YOU HEARTLESS BITCH. It bothers you thinking that you was once friends with me, but it bothers me that you left me. But you don't care isn't it. You said you wouldn't give a damn anymore.

THIS IS IT.
THE END.
all i gotta say is here.

i still care. But if you don't, i'm not going to try again.
and there's 2 response to this post. Either you call me and tell me what the fuck you are thinking or completely get out of my life. Just, please. If you don't care about me, at least be fair and give me time to heal my wounds.

. wtf man, i have no idea why i care so much for people who doesn't gives a shit about me.